Tuesday, March 31st
So lately I’ve been having this feeling of “somethings missing”. One could chalk it up to just being in a bad mood, or perhaps I’ve gotten some sand in my vag. I think its been more then that, like something isn’t complete, or I’m not where I’m supposed to be at this point in my life. I miss all my old friends who I never see anymore, even though I don’t do shit to contact them, and for the most part don’t care to contact them. Perhaps I should call and talk to some of them, go through the uncomfortable conversations “HEY!! its me! Remember?” Maybe this is all my mothers fault, whom I haven’t spoken to for months. Except for the shitty emails we exchange where she gets to tell me how rotten I am, oh how I despise the ability of parents to say but a few words and the next thing you realize is that your feeling as if your 5 years old again and just called the neighbor girl a mother fucker and getting your mouth washed out with soap. True story btw. Arggh!! Damn you! Damn you all to hell!!!
Ive been thinking about changing the site and going public, IE revealing who I am. Because I’m at a point where I want to talk about me and my life more then I want to talk about politics. I’m just not in that mindset anymore. This my handful of readers is a slippery slope, I’m quite positive my wife would be horrified of someone from her family accidentally coming across this site. Sure I could hide all the old posts but I why should I, when it was such a part of who I was. I’m certain they would excommunicate me from their family, cast out to run rampant with all the other non believing heathens. I cant put all the blame on them, I’m more cowardly then I lead on, thus why I’m anonymous. le sigh
